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And this child’s belief brought me to new dimensions when someone was mean to me. And let me grow for the heavenly land which is heavenly /Reich) which protects me like the strong hand, Good father which is not comparable. This hit like a lightning in my childhood.
I think some of you have experienced similar variations of my history. I think everyone has. When someone was not nice to us. And it‘s strange how this forms us. But of course it does.
Since I was four-years-old I have been to Åh Stiftsgård. I was just 4-years-old, when I came there the first time and then I was there every year, year after year. First at community days after that as confirmand, then confirmand teacher since I was 16. And then I got married there, got my own kids and didn‘t have time to be confirmand teacher anymore.
The period of my life which I will tell you about and which is part of the book is when I was a confirmand. When I was sitting there one evening, one of those evenings which are so beautiful like just summer in Bohuslän can be. And you get totally crazy because the light outside is so nice and something is in the air.
And those green benches they just get over to the green outside. And the sunset was so nice. I was 16-years-old and I came with 2 bags full of my stuff for 3 weeks at Åh and I had a 3rd bag with me, the sorrow about my mom, who had cancer. I walked around with those important questions within me. Am I going to keep my mother, is she going to survive or is she going to die?
And at one of these evenings said the leader that we should find our own place in the church, go inside yourself. Stop talking and start to listen. God is there and He wants to tell you something, so sit down and listen to him. You can‘t just sit there and talk, bind the hair and compare wallets, since we didn‘t have any cell phones back then. Otherwise we would have compared them. So sit for yourself and listen. So we sat ourselves on our own and what happened to me was that the big questions I had, which took all my energy all my power got a strange answer, which I built all my life on.
Because the song we were singing this evening was simple, it is taken from the Bible.
Do you have an English Bible with you? No? I will read the text for you now:
Phillipians 4 /7
„... and the peace of God, that is surpassing all understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christus Jesus. “
I read it again:
„... and the peace of God, that is surpassing all understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christus Jesus. “
And for you who didn‘t listen, I will read it once again:
„... and the peace of God, that is surpassing all understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christus Jesus. “
„I haven‘t seen any light before now. Mom and dad are my poles. I have two poles in my life. I‘m bound to those poles. If one of them disappears I would fall, I believed. But I realize that it doesn’t have to be like this. From now on, from this evening on God will be my second pole.
Heidi, which is one of the confirmand moms (we call the female leaders mother) comes to me and asks how I am.
- My mom, I say. She has cancer. Maybe she is going to die.
It‘s not the first time I talk about it, but the first time I let someone else comfort me.
I cry. It doesn‘t matter. I cry the same kinds of tears as some of the moms and dads cried at the community days at Åh. The same kind of tears like the father on the painting cries, I think.
The most important thing of the truth is that God is going to take care of me, even if mom is going to be taken away from me will all my tears have a place. God’s peace is going to save my my thoughts. I feel it within me.
I decide to say yes to God with all my heart within some weeks when I am going to be confirmed. Nothing in my life has ever been so true. Nothing ever gave me that much hope like this.“
The short version in English: I told them about my confirmation camp and that my mother has cancer and that I think she is going to die. And instead of my world is falling apart God comes into it to balance it. I get this through a Bible verse maybe we can check it after this.
Now you get it 2 times this feels exciting you can compare in case you forgot something. This is so good. I can also take it in German. Anyone who can speak German?
I‘m sitting at Gothenburg `90, Scandinavium is totally filled with Christians because John Wimber the big leader from the USA is going to come to talk. Exciting! And I should actually be youth leader but I don‘t care and go to listen to John Wimber.
So I sit there on one of those hard seats, the stage is huge and so is he even if he is looking like an ant, so far away as he is and I listen to him and he says.
“Give the little thing you have to God. Give the little you have.“
And I think of the little boy who has 5 bread and 2 fishes and this is totally crazy idea because normally people would laugh at this idea but God makes a miracle and at the end they have food for 5.000 and 12 baskets at the end.
If I give my little something and at the end I will have food for 5,000 and have 12 baskets over. So it sounds that it‘s gonna be good if I give the little thing I have. It‘s the way God works. Do you understand what I mean? The little thing you have is not big, it‘s simple and pure and this you should give.
He is also talking about the things we like to do. I like to sing and I often got to hear, well this wasn‘t so good Jenny. But I got to be first soprano at Dom churches girl choir because I could sing the high tones, even though I wasn‘t so good with the rest, but this fit. So I started to sing there after the summer camp and then I had this band with my brother and my sister. And this was fun, it was rock and we had microphones. And I thought music and singing is really something I would like to do. So I gave this little something because it was the only I had. And I thought this girl choir is something He could do something out of it, because it was Christian.
But what happened ... it was Ace of Base who became the music miracle from Sweden. I was a part of them and got to travel around the world to talk and sing and talk and sing. So I became something like a celebrity. And I think Marie Fredriksson said something true: “You go around all day long and see in the eyes of the people.“
I‘m just going to read something in my book about how that can be to be known: